Feeling Out of Place

I feel so out of place.  I am 30 years old and yet have so many hobbies and interests and it's hard for me to connect with most people.  My severe dietary restrictions, OCD/repetitive behaviors (partially anxiety/stress related, I think), anxiety, sensory overload, learning disabilities, stress, lack of friends to rely on, auditory processing disorder and a host of other health conditions don't make me feel lesser (anymore) but they do make me feel very very different and it's always in the back of my mind and also trying to figure out ways to try and relate to people which is seemingly impossible.  I am currently self-employed which keeps me going but it only keeps me going so much as I don't have that extra push to want to do better and keep moving forward.  I've lost a lot of really great friends over the years due to severe self-isolation (went through many years of just disliking myself and keeping myself alone due to my severe depression).  I do not wish to be so self-isolated anymore and stay entirely guarded but I am honestly unsure what to do next.  Currently I am trying to reach out to my doctor so I can get the proper referrals hopefully to get the help I need.  Does anybody else feel this way?